first, congratulations to my friends and peers on their many accomplishments and acceptances, i am extremely proud!
it’s been a long, arduous seven months and then some. the stress and the heartbreak have been overwhelming at times, but i have always had great support and amazing friends
i was disappointed yesterday. how could i be? the obnoxious woes of someone that didn’t make their dream schools but made great schools nonetheless. i saw all the former magnet kids make multiple ivies. i had made plans to visit an old math teacher with former classmates and i felt like i failed him. my own boyfriend told me that it’s okay that i made my targets, that they’re great schools. but what about my reaches?
targets is such a dirty word. it implies that you’re probably going to get into the school, and you expect to. but there really aren’t targets or reaches. each school has its way of evaluating students and selecting its incoming class. everything is a crap shoot, for everyone (except maybe the intel winners, but at least for a majority of people)
but fuck it, i’m damn proud of where i got into. i don’t need to fit the hunter standard of ivies to know that i’m going to go somewhere and i’m going to be somebody
the college process sucks. it’s disappointing, and it is a horrible monster that tells students that you’re only worth as much as the name brand college you get into. it’s the standard that i bought into, from day one of seventh grade. but now i know better, or at least, i’m still trying to know better
i’m still embittered by this process and still need to come to terms with it. i have seen extremely qualified friends not get into schools they’ve worked incredibly hard to get into. how do you tell them that their good gpa, good sat scores and good extracurriculars doesn’t guarantee them anything. isn’t that what colleges want? but who knows what they want and who knows how they think. all students can do is try their best in school, work hard on their applications, submit, close their eyes and hope for the best
i’ve been waiting to go to college since i began school as a wee child. i’ve made it and i am so excited! i’ve booked my tickets and am going to be off the ground running
i’m the fucking best, and i don’t need any school to tell me that i’m not. and i hope everyone knows that.